10/29/2024

eating sardines and trying not to feel mentally ill.

like i am doing all of the correct things and i am eating, i'm baking bread, i went outside on a walk, i didn't even smoke weed this morning! and it feels great! but now i get to sit on my not as awesome feelings

i'll keep trying today too, even though i still feel sick in the brain and i don't feel like a person but i will keep choosing to live through this so i can survive until i'm better or until i die trying LMAO

i'm not sure what else to even say...

during these hard trying times i'm playing a lot of video games but realy, i want the thing i fear most and that is human interaction and to feel loved because i'm just really struggling to feel loved by anyone outside of my immediete circle

sickening sickening sickening